POSITIVE LIGHT

So the pitchwars contest came to an end and I’m a little disheartened for not getting any requests at all. However, I feel like I still won because I made a lot of new friends put of it and met some really amazing writers like myself!

Instead of seeing it in a negative way, I’m focusing my energy on seeing the good that came out if it. As they said it’s not the be all of end all when it comes to our stories. And it’s true. But I would have loved to work with a mentor and learn how it would feel to work with a potential agent.

But this isn’t the end for me or my work. I’m querying again for a bit and there is the AuthorMentorMatch happening on Monday! So I’m excited for that! At least Pitchwars helped me realize there is nothing to be nervous about when submitting my story anywhere.

Wish me luck for this next one!

WORLDBUILDING

I speak for myself when I say worldbuilding is hard. I decided to take a peek at my manuscript again with fresh eyes after finished it many months ago. Seeing the way it was allowed me to see that even if it was perfect (to me), it needed a little work.

I’ve taken a couple of days to head back into revision hell and even if it’s quite easy for me, it’s still tough. I’ve cut out so many things that I felt would have dragged down the book. Most of what I changed/removed, I felt wouldn’t work anymore.

This mean deleting over 6k and more words only to rewrite everything so it can fit perfectly. Trust me, it hurt. Especially when I changed the ages to suit the genre. But honestly it’s worth it because the path it’s taking might turn out for the best!

But revising came easy once I built a calendar for my world as an outline for myself. It’s my first time every creating an outline. I don’t normally give an outline for plot at all. I just pick a creative idea and then pants it all the way through. Anyway, the calendar thing was a great idea. I got to learn about my world a little but more because of it.

One day, I hope everyone can enter it and enjoy it as much as I do.

AMM BIO

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So I’m planning to join AMM (#AuthorMentorMatch) in case pitchwars doesn’t work out for me. I thought I was too late to join but I was reassured that I’m still just in time. Here’s an old photo of me that I use everywhere. Since it’s the currently the only one that’s good.

So here’s a little bit about me and my precious book. Thank you so much for reading and having and interest in me as a whole! ♡

INTRODUCTION.

My name is Kerrilyn Dasilva, I was born and raised in Toronto, Ontario. I started writing in the peak of middle school, having found a love for it. I was twelve years old when I started and it began with small amounts of poetry. But when I started my freshman year of high school, I began attempting my own full novels. Creating characters and worlds not my own are things I really enjoy. I’d rather talk about my fictional characters than myself since that’s way easier.

My first book has been with me through blood, sweat and tears. I started The Sealing Mark under a very different name with a different setting. As much as I don’t like revisions, I’ve gone to hell and back with rewriting and rehashing my story in 2015 officially starting to make giant changes. I’ve gone through character changes, plot changes, etc. Finally I completed it a few months ago this year. I’m proud of how far I’ve come with what I do as an aspiring author.

FUN FACTS ABOUT ME

  • I love tea. Honestly, I would drink any kind of tea and I’m willing to try new ones.
  • I tend to get addicted to new shows I end up enjoying a bit too much for my own good. Because getting me into new things, I won’t shut up about it!
  • I’ve met a few voice actors in person. One which I met a few months back during the summer and one coaches me.
  • I draw in my spare time. I’d upload a few examples but the computer I use to draw on died. However, I like ding aesthetic boards in my spare time.

ABOUT MY NOVEL

  • Title: THE SEALING MARK
  • Words: 87,000
  • Status: completed

My novel is completed as a standalone but with series potential. In order to get a feel of what my novel is about think Disney’s HERCULES and A:TLA had a crossover but with original elements. TSM has a fairy tale like story and is about spiritual strength and growth, loss, betrayal, love, family and friendship.

Here are some aesthetic boards (for book 1):

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and some related quotes from pinterest:

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WHY I’D MAKE A GOOD MENTEE

Although I’m shy,  I’m very friendly and warmhearted. I’m also cooperative and compliant to change and willing to work as a team with my potential mentor. I try my best to keep in as much contact as I can. As a perfectionist, I hope to get feedback to make my story as amazing as possible and I’m open to criticism. I am currently not in school nor do I have a job but I do volunteer during the weekends sometimes but I’m mostly available anytime necessary.

WRITER’S ANXIETY

I have it bad. In fact, I get so worried no one will like my writing, that some of them I’ve deleted long ago (and later regretted it) or i just don’t share my work. I’ve been getting a lot of rejections as of late and it’s been playing into my anxiety.

Half the time I want to give up but I don’t because I keep telling myself I will one day find an agent who will champion my work. But what if I don’t? It worries me that I will never get to publish the one story that’s been with me since childhood… ever.

I just hope I get to publish it one day. But next post I’m going to briefly go over a new WIP I got from a dream. Stay tuned!

I’M NOT FOND OF REVISIONS.

You read the title right. Now, before you raise your pitchfork, come with me on my personal journey for a second. Meaning: hear me out before you convict me!

When it comes to revising, it’s the most tedious part of writing. But just because I’m not fond of it, doesn’t mean I’m not open to the idea. I mean, doing revisions for my own purpose is taxing.

This is when I’ll go into procrastination mode. It’s one of the reasons I took so long on writing my first novel. I’ll admit, I’m a lazy and creative genius. And I’ve been told that many times. I’ll put in all the effort I can…. when I can. When it came to my first draft, it was a little easy because I knew what to expand on. At that time I had a word goal of 100k to get to and I was no where near that.

By the write the second draft was written I was over 100k and now it was time for me to revise again but i took another year off. It was now 2016 and my story was still fresh but then I stopped. I’d picked up another standalone book with series potential (but that one is a secret for now because that needs A LOT of revising).

2017 was the year I did absolutely no writing. That year was to actually tackle retro games I never got to play as a kid / adolescent and it worked out pretty great. I completed Final Fantasy 8, replayed a game I grew up with and… still never beat it, haha. But as soon as 2018 crawled, I began reading again.

I never knew why I stopped reading but all I knew was that I pushed myself to read books and I finished a total of three books. Quite small, but it’s a good start. And that allowed me to revise my third draft earlier this year. And let me tell you that was my personal hell.

I was battling whether is should be in first or third person, past or present tense, whether I should keep all my characters alive. I did extensive research and kill your darlings is one of my favorites because I did that unintentionally. Some of the characters I had in my book I had to straight. up. delete. And that was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But by May I had everything figured out. Hell, I even ripped out chunks of my writing and rewrote again. But this time I took away over 80k and left with dust!! I was frustrated with myself! I took one month off… June was my relaxation month.

Well, I thought I’d relax. It was more of a get them ideas when you’re not busy kinda month, you know? Anyway, nearing the end I took up my manuscript, brought my weapons to the battlefield and got cracking. There wasn’t a day I didn’t rest. I forgot to eat so many times! I didn’t go out to have fun, or talk to my friends while I was in that writing period. It was my NaNoWriMo month and nothing would mess that up. When the end of the month came crawling into July, I finally finished the 4th revision. And I’m going into my fifth because of a very wonderful beta reader I have.

It’s honestly easier when I have someone being an extra pair if eyes. I don’t feel like I’m in hell anymore. But when I was alone, staying up until 6 in the morning to revise my own work? That was my personal hell. Again, I really hate revisions but I’m not opposed to it. Especially when it comes to beta readers, literary agents or editors. They’re helping me help myself. Will I ever go back down that road again?

Definitely. Because I have more stories up my sleeve.

I DID IT.

Image result for anime cheer happy I entered my writing in the contest earlier this afternoon and I’m so proud. Still, after when I’d pushed the submit button I began screaming internally and doing that thing where I regret everything I did and wished I could undo it.

Either way, it’s done. I’m in. I’m happy I braved it. Now all I need to do is wait.