I’M NOT FOND OF REVISIONS.

You read the title right. Now, before you raise your pitchfork, come with me on my personal journey for a second. Meaning: hear me out before you convict me!

When it comes to revising, it’s the most tedious part of writing. But just because I’m not fond of it, doesn’t mean I’m not open to the idea. I mean, doing revisions for my own purpose is taxing.

This is when I’ll go into procrastination mode. It’s one of the reasons I took so long on writing my first novel. I’ll admit, I’m a lazy and creative genius. And I’ve been told that many times. I’ll put in all the effort I can…. when I can. When it came to my first draft, it was a little easy because I knew what to expand on. At that time I had a word goal of 100k to get to and I was no where near that.

By the write the second draft was written I was over 100k and now it was time for me to revise again but i took another year off. It was now 2016 and my story was still fresh but then I stopped. I’d picked up another standalone book with series potential (but that one is a secret for now because that needs A LOT of revising).

2017 was the year I did absolutely no writing. That year was to actually tackle retro games I never got to play as a kid / adolescent and it worked out pretty great. I completed Final Fantasy 8, replayed a game I grew up with and… still never beat it, haha. But as soon as 2018 crawled, I began reading again.

I never knew why I stopped reading but all I knew was that I pushed myself to read books and I finished a total of three books. Quite small, but it’s a good start. And that allowed me to revise my third draft earlier this year. And let me tell you that was my personal hell.

I was battling whether is should be in first or third person, past or present tense, whether I should keep all my characters alive. I did extensive research and kill your darlings is one of my favorites because I did that unintentionally. Some of the characters I had in my book I had to straight. up. delete. And that was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. But by May I had everything figured out. Hell, I even ripped out chunks of my writing and rewrote again. But this time I took away over 80k and left with dust!! I was frustrated with myself! I took one month off… June was my relaxation month.

Well, I thought I’d relax. It was more of a get them ideas when you’re not busy kinda month, you know? Anyway, nearing the end I took up my manuscript, brought my weapons to the battlefield and got cracking. There wasn’t a day I didn’t rest. I forgot to eat so many times! I didn’t go out to have fun, or talk to my friends while I was in that writing period. It was my NaNoWriMo month and nothing would mess that up. When the end of the month came crawling into July, I finally finished the 4th revision. And I’m going into my fifth because of a very wonderful beta reader I have.

It’s honestly easier when I have someone being an extra pair if eyes. I don’t feel like I’m in hell anymore. But when I was alone, staying up until 6 in the morning to revise my own work? That was my personal hell. Again, I really hate revisions but I’m not opposed to it. Especially when it comes to beta readers, literary agents or editors. They’re helping me help myself. Will I ever go back down that road again?

Definitely. Because I have more stories up my sleeve.

Laptop might be bricked?

I’m so scared right now. I simply restarted my computer as I normally do when it acts slow… but this time it’s in an endless restarting loop. I have no cash to shell out to fix it… I’m just so glad I backed up my manuscript on Google docs. 

I’m praying my laptop can be repaired without me shelling out any cash. I’ve done on tutorial that didn’t work. Here’s to trying another one in Hope’s this will work… 

PUNS.

If there is one thing I love, it’s puns. Whenever I am in a conversation, when the timing is right, I’d slip in a joke for the kill. Though, I’m a real sucker if you make a clever pun or joke. Of course, I know there is a time and place… but sometimes if it’s too serious, I might make one just to remove the tension.

But sometimes I wonder if my making jokes is a coping method.

PATIENCE

I’ve queried a few agents and I’ve been playing the waiting game. I’m a really patient person. I can wait out months for my favourite season of a show to come out or a preorder of a game… This is the same difference. But no matter how many times I whisper my little mantra to stay patient, I still stalk my Gmail inbox refreshing every couple seconds hoping I get an answer back soon.

I’m anticipated for any kind of answer be it yay or nay. One will make me scream to the heavens, the other will give me the strength to push on. 

Still… How does one deal with patience… Hm.

PERSONAL THOUGHTS

I always see that there is barely any positivity. Not that is isn’t any of it at all. It seems everyone is going through something and it’s become common for everyone to be miserable, including myself. So we all talk to our friends/family and vent. When they aren’t available we take to whatever social media platform we use and write our feeling there. 

Sometimes we are faced with encouragement and validation, other times we are faced with negativity and get called an attention seeker.

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WHY I LOVE FANTASY & MAGIC.

Since I was young, I was interested in being in other worlds. I felt a special connection to anything supernatural revolving around worlds that are made up. Whether it was through my favourite game, book or show, I wanted to live there instead. While I do enjoy animations and books with alternate earth, I preferred being in worlds not my own (reality wise). This made it easier to further escape reality even if the stories, movies, shows, etc have similar historical events.

Every time I felt in a low mood, I’d pick up a book or a game and escape to that world for a while until I was better. Immersing myself like this caused me to develop a deep love for fantasy. It became a comfort thing that I ran to when I felt at my lowest point. And it’s not like there was never any access to it. I rewatched all my favourite movies, replayed my favourite games, picked up new ones, found new books.

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